Emerging from the Chinese Church

Pondering a Return from Hiatus | October 15, 2007

Well, I’m back! (sort of) After a friendly e-mail from David Park I’ve been pondering whether to come out of “hiding” and blog again.

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Visiting Vancouver… Pondering…

I think to be honest, I kind of stopped blogging for a few reasons… but not to bore you with all of them, the main reason was probably that I didn’t really want to share my thoughts online… I know, it sort of defeats the purpose of the blog, but I know I’ve been going through a lot in terms of learning, whether it was on a practical basis, theological basis, or simply just to stop talking to much and just trying to BE what God was calling me to be. Writing a blog like this has given me a space to rant and to join in community with online bloggers (especially asian christians who feel they are in transition in their thinking) but I have also felt helpless, even hopeless at times on my end.

Many times over the summer I’ve felt the urge to blog, to re-tell my stories in the chinese church, but as you all can see, in the end, I chose not to blog whether it was because I was too lazy or because I felt uneasy to share it online I’m not sure. I have some drafts of stuff I’ve wanted to publish online, but have never published it. Maybe it just feels like in the end I feel nobody’s listening… nobody’s really “conversing” for the betterment of the Christ’s church…

Okay, I’m generalizing, but at times, it did feel very hopeless. But on the flip side, here is what I have been attempting this “fall semester” at my church.

Because of the enormous size of my church (well, not so large on the english service side), I’ve decided to put my energy into the Worship Ministry that I am currently leading and on staff for. Although I am very concerned with the development of musical talent and spiritual growth of this ministry, ultimately, I hope through addressing some of those things, we can establish a sort of community that can be visible in the church. I wonder if that’s TOO subversive? I’m not sure? I’m just trying to enact what I can in my own personal sphere of influence.

The other reason I have not had much time for blogging is because I have been more and more active in my own side hobby in playing in bands and (sometimes) writing music. I don’t know if it’s really “postmodern” of me, but I am pretty tired of the modern criteria of the asian community to be a doctor, lawyer, comp sci programmer, etc. Why can’t we asians tap into our creative side anymore? Creative without the hippyness? I attend a church which is located in the heart of suburban Toronto and most people are wrapped up in their career and friends, any hint of creativity seems to have disappeared because it takes to much effort and time. OF COURSE it takes time and effort! But that is our worship to God! Our sacrifice! (or at least mine…).

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Tuning my Strat and still pondering…

Anyways, after this long ramble of a blog, I hope y’all have gained a little perspective in my so-called chinese-christian life. I’ve been wrapping my head so long about what needs to change in this setting, now I’m just trying to actually do what I’m called to do and try to hear what God is saying in all this. I want to follow Jesus, but it’s so hard when there’s not many people are vocal about it around you…

Please respond so I can legitimize keeping at this blog!

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4 Comments »

  1. good post! even though I only skimmed it…

    Comment by Josh — October 15, 2007 @ 9:54 pm

  2. haha! you’re back!~ at least share the music with us , gyah!

    Comment by David Park — October 25, 2007 @ 4:06 pm

  3. Whoa, you posted after all.

    I know what you mean about the risks of sharing thoughts online. I think the most meaningful conversations only really happen offline, anyway.

    See you offline!

    Comment by Weewian — December 28, 2007 @ 9:52 pm

  4. Greetings in the name of Jesus Christ,

    It is my hope your well and you continue better with God’s work. Also we are together spiritually and freshly. We continue better with God’s work.

    I ‘m pastor Daudi Thomas Msimbe and my wife Georgina we are senior pastor of a church of Great Vision Pentecostal and Ministry of People Shipping Centre
    (by leadership of the holly spirit) since 2003 we started this work of God and now we have four years in the ministry , but now is already registered by country laws.

    Our registration number is so. 14120. Also we have no permanent place for worshiping God. We have some place we pay for every month.

    The purpose of this letter to you servant of God is to need friendship (please read the book of Malachi 2:7) So that to be have benefit together in the body of Christ and God’s work continue forward means all we are unity in body of Christ(1 Corinthians 12:7,12-27)

    My church and I we need Contacts So that we need saving God with you together.
    Thank you for your cooperation between you and our ministry.

    We expect you to give us your program and ways how to to do the work of God, And if possible to send kinds of spiritually books and tracts for evangelism.

    So that the work of God can continue well and growth because I know our country is peacefully Greet all believers in the name of the Lord (1 Thess 5:26) first of all we need your prayers.

    You are most welcome to Arusha Tanzania in East Africa .

    Yours faithfully,

    Pastor Daudi Thomas Msimbe

    P.O Box 13437 Arusha-Tanzania
    Tel: +255 754228477
    +255 755565473
    +255 787147833

    Comment by Daudi Msimbe — January 17, 2008 @ 9:04 am


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